I don't know what the fuck i'm doing. I sit in fantasy hour to hour,even if im surrounded by a bunch of people,at a party,in a crowded room with family,i'm always somewhere else,pondering those type of questions that no one can anwser certainly,i'm never aware of the moment,im always in fantasy,i don't know why,every fucking day seems so boring and depressing,i sit in sorrow watching the time go by,sometimes i remind myself to be happy,and then become,for a minute or two,then dose back into mourning,maybe i need to fucking get a life.Or maybe i dont get life.Or,maybe i'm just crazy. Maybe i have a mental disorder,or personality disorder,ha not many people would consider,because they dont get a chance,i never feel a heart to heart connection with anyone.I feel my family are a bunch of shitasses,maybe i am too haha,they havent done anything,they're not really dysfunctional,but for some reason i LOATHE them. I think about suicide,but am too much of a pussy to do it,ha otherwise i wouldnt be here on a goddamn bloody website writing things that dont make sense,or no one wants to hear,but writing is quite like a type of therapy to me. Sometimes i make a big deal out of life,unrealistic goals some people call them,making it big,becoming a star...sometimes i think life isnt such a big deal,its fake,and so what if i die,its all soo boring,but then i just dose straight back into dreaming,like wtf. Whoever's reading this,if anyone is bothering hahahah,or can even stand it,may realize that i may well be crazy,or just another idiot abusing the internet. I may be both.Life,and death are so boring,well i dont know that as a fact,but its what i feel,i hardly make any sense,common sense is sometimes valuable,no im not drunk,or high on drugs,maybe im already dead.

Hmm does anyone know a song its sung by a girl and its kinda technoey and i only remember some words: "something something dirty feeling, where do i go i can make my escape" i had a dream that i was at a party and i fell in a pool and that song was playing, sorry if there isn't enough info given. :S

Whats it like looking through my eyes? The world through my eyes is pretty much a huge place filled with a ton of smart people that can't seem to convince all the other people in the world to stop all of this mindlessness and violence. In my eyes, violence is one of the number one problems the world faces today. Theres numerous stories on the news every day about some violent act taking place. People these days use violence to take care of their problems. Violence is not the answer, people! Whatever happened to sitting down with whoever it is you are wanting to hurt/kill and just talking about it? Sure it sounds lame, but it beats the hell out of spending the rest of your life in jail for killing one of your friends over something stupid, right? I don't understand why people feel the need be violent. Sure, some people cant help it because of a mental disability or something along those lines and I can understand that. What I can't understand is this, the people who are able to control their actions still think they need to use violence to solve their problems. The world sickens me. Honestly, it does. All of this violence is just sick. Right now, as im writing this, someone, somewhere could be acting violent towards someone or something else. This wolrd is sick. End of story.

Whats it like looking through my eyes? The world through my eyes is pretty much a huge place filled with a ton of smart people that can't seem to convince all the other people in the world to stop all of this mindlessness and violence. In my eyes, violence is one of the number one problems the world faces today. Theres numerous stories on the news every day about some violent act taking place. People these days use violence to take care of their problems. Violence is not the answer, people! Whatever happened to sitting down with whoever it is you are wanting to hurt/kill and just talking about it? Sure it sounds lame, but it beats the hell out of spending the rest of your life in jail for killing one of your friends over something stupid, right? I don't understand why people feel the need be violent. Sure, some people cant help it because of a mental disability or something along those lines and I can understand that. What I can't understand is this, the people who are able to control their actions still think they need to use violence to solve their problems. The world sickens me. Honestly, it does. All of this violence is just sick. Right now, as im writing this, someone, somewhere could be acting violent towards someone or something else. This wolrd is sick. End of story.

Has anyone ever wondered why people eat eggs? I mean, in all honesty, someone...somewhere...at sometime decided one of two things: 1. I'm going to eat the next thing that comes out of that chicken; or 2. I wonder what that chicken's unborn baby would taste like scrambled or fried. Sick, utterly sick.

You should All switch to Christianity!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is something that I have come to believe as a farmer that all city folk should take as advice...