uhh is that a trick question? well i guess its normal, and well normal to me is uhh well you can see fine and such soo ya, i guess thats how its like seeing through my eyes, i guess.

i just thought of something

"Whatever you repress will become stress. You cannot fix what you cannot face. There is no right or wrong, there is only what is." November 30, 2005 11:36 am - Updated from sikzy's livejournal Frank is a fucktard. He was a manipulative twit who physically and mentally abused me as his girlfriend while he lied to every other female who would sit on his face and pee on him while in his fantasy world his puppy "you know who you are" either probably fucked him in the ass or milked his all too eager hardon that didn't even last 20 seconds our last time. It was dumb of me to think he was above the physical abuse and lies to cover his own insecurities. I've been told by close friends that I come off too self aware and strong. My first question is, ok well how do you show your vulnerable side without being road kill? I moved into Tampa so Knarph would not have to live in his car after he pulled what he did at Roadie's house with Roadie present. And the only gratitude I got from him was for him to freak out, beat and throw me out of the house twice! Needless to say the 2nd time was the last, I have done everything I could do to possibly recover any type of friendship and deem it no longer a viable or safe/sane option. I paid all the rent and utilities for that house and even I had more balls than he did, when after I told him things were over and that yes, I finally slept with someone who didn't have to lie or cheat to get sex from me. That after 5 years of getting nothing but dishonesty and heartache, I simply woke up. Just like Mike said, I would. This took a long time but I survived. I believe that though the rest of my life will be lonely without what I thought I had, but at least I gave the relationship what I could, my all. Sometimes, sorry just won't cut through, especially when you repeat, rinse, repeat.. And often times, every person has a different definition of "my all". I can live with this more un-trusting nature within me, it should be fun to live with, without the yelling. hrm.. meep. Good riddance! Out with the old bs and in with all the best intentions for the right person, me. It's not selfishness, it's self love. Frank, though I am bitter, frankly Frank, I know I never deserved what I got from you and I can say that with my head held high and my heart grieving. I am sorry things had to end between us like that. I'm going to take it one day at a time, time is all i've got now.

If you went back in time to seperate your parents, you wouldn't be born. Therefore you could not go back in time to seperate them.

You know that feeling of total helplessness that you get standing on the edge of a very tall structure? It's kinda like that all the time for me.

The hardest person to like is yourself nobody else.

It is like looking throw a smoked filled room. Every thing is a little hazy ,nothing clear, nothing as what it seems. Too many drugs I may be high.Dont even know who I am any more.This is the life I have chosen, day of LSD and Nights of excity.When will it all end maybe just on more pill.Lights flashing Colors bluring, head spining,Life is lost.

I want to know why i am here? From where i have come in this world? Where i will be live after this mortal life? I want to know about mysels as well as universe. I think that i am unable to understand this universe. What is time and space? How we live in time? When the time started? when time will be ended? One should be think over it that where he come into existence? behzad

If a quiz is a quizzicle then what the hell is a test?

I have a relatively boring life, except for my love life. I love my boyfriend very much! And I am sooo thankful for him, he's helped me through a lot of tough times. I just want everyone to know that you should be your own person. If my boyfriend and few best friends hadnt taught me that, I dont think I would have survived my depression. I was always trying to please people, and thought I had to dress and act a certain way in order to be "cool". Now, I dress completely crazy, or completely normal, and do and say what I feel like (sorry if this sounds too teenage angst-like) but life's sooo much more enjoyable this way. It's so much more pleasant when you're living life for the people and things you love, and yourself. And i think that's all i have to say for now.